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Holidays... Again?

Lol... I cant believe it was such a long time since i touched this thing... I haven't wrote anything here for the past few months... In fact, i haven't been writing anything non-factual ever since I started my engineering course... I fear that i might have lost the touch of writing rubbish and nonsensical gibberish for mere entertainment...

Anyway, here I am again writing for the sake of writing because i can't think of anything better to do... It's funny how when during the exam period i was practically wishing i could just dump everything and go slack off, but now that the holidays are here, I am just plain bored out of my soul...

Now that I am free again, I've been wondering about a lot of things... Mainly about friendship, because I'm currently feeling pissed off about the attitude of a friend of mine...

As the saying goes : "It is always better to give then to receive"... But is there a point where you should stop giving and start asking for something in return? I do not know... I felt that i have done my part as a friend... I love my friends, and the things i do for them, i do not expect anything in return... But there are times when i feel that my efforts have not been appreciated... there are times that i feel that I've been made use of...

Have i been played a fool?

Were my expectations too high? Am i expecting him to be perfect by my standards?

I have not been this disappointed with anyone in a very long while. Had he always been like that or do people change?

Holidays......

I realllise that too much holidays is not good...

Gets pretty boring after awhile...

Looking forward to starting classes...

Anyways... I'm writting this out of sheer boredom... bologging was never one of my hobbies. I only write if I have absolutely nothing to do or if I have alot of things on my mind... I dunno why people bother to record their lives on blogs... Life is already mundane as it is without having to write it down ~~

Going to play badminton with Darrel and some other friends later... Dun fancy badminton that much... juz playing to pass the time...

Looking for people to chat with... But i think everyone is still sleeping~~ pigs~~ haha... Most people only appear online at night. I guess its because most people got something better to do... unlike me...

Alrite... going to eat lunch now... sick of the food at Orange d... but what to do... no where else to eat d =_=

2020....

Well this is it... I've finally turned 20... I'm already starting to feel the years catching up on me *coughs*.... Haha... I'm getting a hunchback and my pot belly is getting bigger and bigger... sigh...

So i guess it's time to look back and count my achievements so far...

Let's see...

I'm proud to say that I'm still a virgin ! (That's because you haven't dated anyone before =.= )

And I still havent gotten caught by the police for any trafick offences  ! (You just started driving on my own a couple of weeks back...)

I'm now studying engineering ! (and that's because you are not smart enough to study medicine, you dork !)

Erm... what else...

Oh yeah... I'm a Dota pro ! (Hey, that's nothing to be proud of !! It just shows how much time you've wasted on the computer...)

...And I can read minds ( No you can't =.= you just made that up... )

Yeah... i made that up...

Alright... I guess I dont have any achievements to boast about... Well so what? Not everyone goes through life achieving things right? Sorry for wasting 20 years of resources... =D

Engineering facts...

Man... i simply just love Dilbert !!

Lol... I guess he is one of the reasons why i chose to study engineering =D

Plagiarised from Suzzane's blog...

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt. And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting. Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt. And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofflirtareyouquiz/

Lol...

Is this true? or was this test only meant for girls? (check out the pic of the cute girl) = ="

Time flies......

Why does time always move faster when you are enjoying yourself?

Why does time always seem shorter as you are approaching a deadline?

According to my special theory of relativity, time travels relatively faster then normal when the above conditions are met. Hence by enjoying oneselve, you are actually bending the space-time continuum, causing a warp in space-time, accelarating your movement along the time line. Obviously, our creator does not want us to enjoy ourselves, hence our brain is wired to send us lurging forward into the future everytime we are having a good time, giving us little time to relish the feeling of pleasure, while deliberately prolonging every second every time we are soaked in sheer boredom, intensifying the agony we suffer.

According to my calculations, extreme time lapses into the future can be made possible by intensifying the pleasure experienced from playing dota by a factor of 1000. By doing so, i estimate that enjoyment of such magnitude will send the subject hurling through time at 50million seconds per second, enabling the possibility of time travel by causing a rip in the fabric of time. However during the period of time travel, the subject will still exist in the space time continuum, but the subject will either appeared to be stoned or seem "not himself", because the brain of the subject has already been teleported to the future.

Similarly, it is possible to stop time by intensifying the boredom experience during a typical Malaysian Studies class in Monash by 50000. However, there is a possibility that the human brain might not be able to tolerate such levels of boredom. Testing showed that by putting laboratory mice through a 3 hour session of Malaysian Studies caused severe brain haemorrhage, leading to paralysis or death due to sheer boredom, hence giving rise to the term "bored to death". The brain will not be able to take the suffering and agony of such boring intensities, because time will approximately come to a halt, causing the subject to experience infinite amount of boredom per second.

Travelling into the past is not possible because that will allow the subject to travel to the period before the boredom actually began, which is physically impossible, since the brain can only slow time in the presence of boredom. It is impossible to travel into the future beyond the subject's existance because by then the subject would be dead, thus ceasing to have a brain.

All about crap......

yeah... I reallise I am full of crap... well literally...

Explains alot... really...

That's why I am so thin...

My digestive system must not be working so well...

Hence, most of the stuff i eat will turn into crap...

Excess crap is expelled out of my body not only via crapping, but some crap can be converted into either written crap or spewed out through the mouth...

Some of you might end up being at the receiving end of my crap...

Argghh... no more crap left... I'm feeling hungry... must feed.....

All about Malaysian studies......

I hate Malaysian studies !!

Im pretty sure they ensured us that the stuff we will be doing in Malaysian studies will be different from what we did in Sejarah during our secondary school years, but appearantly it turns out to be exactly the same thing. I really wonder why they make us do this stuff over and over again... I was really glad after form 5 because i thought that the nightmare of ever having to turn another page of the sejarah book was over, but i couldn't have been any wronger.

So here I am, in my University years and still forced to learn about how Parameswara betrayed Singapore, how the Sultans stupidly sold our country to foreigners and how we had to practically get down on their knees to beg the Brittish to give our country back. Its rather embarassing to learn that your country was once ruled by threacherous people, fools and cowards... and I see history repeating itself even in present times.

On top of that, we have the most boring lecturer who ever walked the face of the Earth. When i say boring, i mean BORING!! He doesn't really teaches. He just reads stuff out of the text book at a horribly slow pace, ignores our questions, and just drones on and on for the whole one and a halve hour. It is a miracle not to fall asleep during his lectures if you actually listen to what he says, so the best way to keep awake is to do your homework during lectures.

Well, thats about it la... better start getting to work on the stupid Malaysian studies assignment which I've been procrastinating for weeks...

Hallelujah.......

I went to church on Sunday. It has been a long time since i last went to church. 6 months at least... This was partly due to the lack of churches back in Alor Setar... and the other parth was due to the fact that i lacked the motivation to lift my bump of the sofa... so there...

I sort of like going to church, although i don't consider myself to be a true christian yet... I still have my doubts and I find it difficult to believe in somtheing that i could not witness with my senses. But then again, going to church gives me a sense of serenity and allows me to ponder about things (such as: why would people want to put a lamb on a throne? never managed to figure that out) and life in general.

Last Sunday, I made an astounding reallisation. During that church session, I was overwhelmed by the passion and submissiveness of the Sunday church goers. Some had their eyes closed while saying their prayers and some had their hands up in the air and made spasm like motions while singing the hymes and praising the Lord's name. And suddenly, it occured to me: it doesnt matter if God actually existed or not. People believe in him and thats all that matters!! For some, God is what drives and motivates them. It is what gives them a sense of purpose and belonging. They belong to God's family, and they are proud of it. He gives them hope and grants them the will to go through trials and tribultaions. Although the true strength might actually lie within themselves, the believe in a higher devine power allows them to focus their energies and hones their spirit.

So i guess it doesnt really matter after all if there is God or not. Anything is possible, just as long as you believe....

Ancora Imparo !!!

Hello!!

I'm posting this from the Monash University library. The new Monash campus at Sunway is great!! Lots of new facilities... Everything is new... I'm mighty glad to be the first batch of students using this new campus... The library is equipted with a 100 or so computers with flad screen LCD monitors. Cool... This the first time i used a monitor of such.

I am currently waiting to take my English diagnostic test, which is  around 1 hr away. So i thought that i might as well do something with that time.

Ok, Im currently staying at Petaling Jaya, SS2/48, which is my grandpa's house. There is only 1 bus which goes to Monash from here which comes at 7.30 am and takes me back at 5.30pm. So if i happen to miss the bus, I'll be in serious trouble. I won't be having any problems with food as SS2 is practically crawling with hawkers who sell all kinds of food, ranging from "Chee cheong fun" to "Char Kuey Teow". The food is pretty good actually, since most of the hawkers claim they are from Penang, having put up signs like "Penang Hokkien Mee" and "Penang Char Kuey Teow". There was even a stall who claims sell "Famous Penang Tau Foo Far by so and so" (can't remember the name the guy put on his sign), but for a person who has lived in Penang for 10 years, I seriously havent heard of such a person before, so he can't be that famous right?

The people here at Monash are rather friendly. I've already gotten to know some new friends and did met up with some old friends from my secondary school.

This week is still the orientation week. Lessons will start on the 16th of July.

I suppose the hype of being in a new environment will die down after a few weeks and routines will set in soon. My lessons will be from 9am to ard 6 pm daily. I'd better start getting use to it......

Gogogo!!!

Thats the end of it. Holidays are over. Uni will be starting next week.

I'll b starting the next phase of my life. At the end of the next 4 years i would b a fully quallified engineer (hopefully). I am really looking forward to starting my university education with mixed anticipation and fear.

I may still update this blog if i have time. But chances are it will b going into hibernation quite soon. Haha...

Cheers!! All the best to all of my friends who are already in uni or those who would be starting uni soon =D

Lol....

***Your Scholastic Strength Is Developing Ideas***

You can take a spark of inspiration and turn it into a full fledged concept.
You are talented at brainstorming, visualizing, organizing, and independent thinking.

You should major in:

Natural sciences
Computer science
Creative writing
Math
Architecture
Journalism

What Should You Major In?
http://blogthings.com/whatshouldyoumajorinquiz/

Hehehe.... nothing whatsoever to do with what im going to study.... XD

***You Should Get a PhD in Science (like chemistry, math, or engineering)***

You're both smart and innovative when it comes to ideas.
Maybe you'll find a cure for cancer - or develop the latest underground drug.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatadvanceddegreeshouldyougetquiz/

Hmm... Thats more like it...

***You Are Pretty Happy Being Single***

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content.
Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while.
But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?
http://blogthings.com/areyouhappybeingsinglequiz/

***Your Brain's Pattern***

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?
http://blogthings.com/whatpatternisyourbrainquiz/

***Your Brain is Purple***

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.
You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.
Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?
http://blogthings.com/whatcolorisyourbrainquiz/

Huh? I ate too much purple stuff? Or my brain lack of oxygen?

Why are modern music either about love or sex? Aren't there anything else to sing about?

Avril Laving's "Girlfriend" sux. Makes me think of some kind desperate bimbo. I hope it goes off the air soon......

All hail the Crimson King!!!

I was wondering why most successful people have less and less children nowadays. I find this phenomenone rather strange as it does not really abide the laws of nature. If the theory of natural selection holds, successful people should have more children so that they can pass down the factors which made them successful to their children, be it diligence, intelliegence or perseverence to make the human race better at whole.

However this is usually not the case. Retarded people are now having children by the busload and are allowed to have MANY wives, while constantly complaining that the government doesn't pay them well enought to feed their kids, demanding pay rises for the minimal amount work they do every now and then.

Then, I was contemplating the fact that perhaps having less children is the key to success as by doing so you are able to save up more money and focus more on expanding your carreer. I am now hoping that the latter fact holds more truth then the former, otherwise given the current trend and the rapid development of science and technology, perhaps there will come a day where the human brain will not be able to keep up with our understanding of our technology and throw the human race back into the dark ages.

I got that idea from the "Dark Tower" novels by Stephen King, which is set in a timeline much much later in the future which is unlike that portrayed by Star Wars, but rather a depleted, desert like world where the knowledge of operating machineries were lost somewhere in time, giving the era a "Western" feel. Its about the quest of a "gunslinger" which is something like a policeman in our time i think, in search for the Dark Tower, which is built in the zennith of technological achievements to hold the world together. However, degeneration of the machinary has caused the Dark Tower to fail gradually, bringing about the destruction of the world. There is also a villian called the "Crimson King" who has bent his will on breaking the Dark Tower so that he could reign supreme in the fit chaos and anarchy brought about by the falling of the Dark Tower. The whole series consist of 7 books and i just finished the 6th book last week. It will provide a rather interesting read for those who enjoyed reading books like "The Lord of the Rings".

Back to reallity...

Whew... What a long trip...

I went to Langkawi 2 weeks ago. After that, i went to KL. Just came back to Kedah yesterday.

Uni officially starts on the 9th of July. I'll be going to KL again next week. Will be studying at Monash University at Sunway... in case anyone was wondering...

The Amazing Race !!

I realise that I've been watching alot of English films, listening to alot of English songs, reading alot of English books, and writting alot of stuff in English. In fact, i haven't touched anything that can link me to my chinese herritage (except my family, of course) for ages. I can read and speak mandarin, but due to the lack of use for 2 years, some of the words seem rather alien to me at the moment and i currently regard English as my main language. So does that make me any less Chinese than I am? I know loads of Chinese people who cant speak mandarin to save their lives... but does that make them any less Chinese then they are?

So I've been wondering... What is the significance of being Chinese? What does the Chinese language and Chinese culture mean to me? Am I a chinese merely because i look like 1?

I've reallised that splitting people into races actually devides the human race at whole. Why is race so important? Im sure most of you will feel proud when members of your own race achieve great things be it at the present time or during some time back in history, some of you might even puff out your chests and say "See, my people are able to achieve this!!". The Chinese will always be proud of the Great Wall. The Egyptions will always be proud of the Pyramids. The Malays will always be proud of Hang Tuah. But the thing is, most of us aren't even related to the people who built the Great Wall or the Pyramids. Some of us might argue that we might have been related at some point of time, but if you trace your family tree far back enough, you will realise that all of us shared a common ancester  200,000 years ago back in Africa. So why cant all of us call ourselves Africans instead?

I think it wouldn't be fair to call me an "Orang Cina". I definately dont feel the sense of belonging to PRC (People's Republic of China) neither do I belong in Taiwan, Hong Kong or Singapore. I am a true blue Malaysian !! Born and bred in Malaysia !! I eat nasi lemak, hang out at Mamak stalls for Teh Tarik and Roti Canai. I speak a 3 in 1 language (mixture of Malay, Hokkien and English), which I'm sure my PRC counterparts dont. So why won't people let me write the word "Malaysian" under the "Bangsa" section when I fill in borangs?

P.S. : I've checked out the dictionary and bangsa can either mean race or nationality.

P.S.S : Being a Malaysian is different from being a Malay...

No choice ma...

I think choices are bad... Why? because choices leads to regret, regret gives rise to frustration, and frustration breeds conflict and conflict will soon become chaos...

Let me illustrate, suppose u have the choice between marrying two girls. So after much thought, u decide to marry girl A. But after the honeymoon, u reallise that girl A wasn't actually what u expected her to be. So u will start to feel regret... "Why din't i marry girl B?'', "Why did i marry this insensitive clod?".... So, you start to feel angry with yourself for making such a bad decision. Later, u reallise that girl B still has feelings for you and you start to have an affair with her. Then later girl A reallises what you were doing and beats the stuffing out of you, throwing your marriage into chaos...

Compared to the scenario of matchmaking, you get married to a girl whom you never even met before, but you are forced to marry her regardless of her looks or personalities. You'd most probably accept it as fate and learn to love her regardless of her flaws.

Hence, im saying that its better if you dont know what you've missed rather then know what you have missed after u have missed it. Besides, having no choice is better because u dont have to go throught the trouble of decision making... Haha...

Tagged from Ji Keon

I got this thingy from my friend's blog : http://thoughtdissector.blogspot.com/

Section I: Write a story, by answering these questions as if you're telling a story.

• So you're walking along in a forest. What season is it?
• After a while, you come to a wall. What kind of wall is it? (height, material, shape, etc..)
• What do you do about it?
• Further in the forest, you happen upon a cup. Describe the cup.What do you do with it (if anything)?
• Next you spot a knife. Describe the knife.What do you do with it (if anything)?
• Next you come across a body of water. What type of body of water is it?What do you do about it?
• Finally, the path you seemed to have made for yourself looks like it ends at a cave. What do you think of it? What do you do about it?

The End.

* Pls do write your story before u read section III, otherwise you'll just tailor ur story, and that'll ruin the fun =P

Section II: Post your story in Comments.


Section III: Here's what your story means:
The journey through the forest represents your life. The way you feel about the season you picked represents the way you feel about life. If it's winter in your story and you love winter, you are enjoying your life.The wall represents your problems in life. The height, material, and shape is your view of your problems' surmountability. What you do about it is how you face your problems.The cup means your friends. What you do with it is you feel about them or how you treat them.The knife is your view of marriage. What you do with it is how you feel about it.The body of water is your view of sex. Was it a large ocean of opportunity? Was it a dirty puddle? Did you jump in? Did you drink it up? Did you pass it by?The cave is your view of death. If you went in, you are not afraid of death.

This is what I wrote:

One day, after having a row with my parents, i decided to take a walk in the woods behind my house.

It was autumn during that time. Dried leaves had turned a dull red colour and were dropping all around me. I took a deep breath and inhaled a deep lungful of cool, crisp, autumn air, trying to clear my mind a bit. Every step i took made a dry crunching sound as i made my way into the heart of the forest. It was a good thing it was autumn otherwise the forest would have been too thick for treking.

After walking around aimlessly for 10 minutes, i stumbled upon an old crumbling wall. It was made of red brick, just like those used in 18th centuary architecture. Part of the wall was covered with spray paint left behind by vandals and druggies who had nothing better to do. I passed my hand gently over the rough surface of the wall, feeling the dusty crevices between the bricks of the ancient stone structure. I remembered the time when my dad used to bring me out to this parts of the woods, and told me old stories of the glorious and magnificent past this structure once held, when i was much younger. Alas, those days were long gone...

I heaved my self over the old brick wall. It must've been ages since I last came here. Was it fate that actually brought me back to this place? As i descended from the wall, I stepped on an old plastic cup, flattening it and spilling out the filthy rain water gathered inside. I watched the small mosquito larvae squirm around for a bit, as the water slowly seeped in between the dry leaves.

Beside the plastic cup was an old rusty knife. About 6 inches in length. The surface of the wall next to the knife had the words "Love Susan forever" etched on it. I picked up the knife and examined it. Nothing special... Just a rusty knife. I put it back where i found it. No way i'm going to carry that thing around !

I kept on walking, leaving the old building behind me. Soon, I reached the part where the forest ends, reavealing the view of a huge lake with steady blue mountains residing at its horizon. I gazed at the crystal clear waters and spotted tiny fish swimming around at the bottom. A few ducks floated around lazily leaving behind a trail of ripples. I took off my shoes and dipped my toes into the lake. Brrr... its cold... Definately not the right season for swimming...

I walk along the sandy shores of the lake until I reached the mouth of a small cave... Legend has it that a long time ago smugglers used this cave to hide their loot (sounds cliche, but thats how i really pictured it to be like). Now, apart from bat droppings and a few skeletons left behind by dead animals, there isn't really much to see. As i took a step in, a chilly gust of wind blew out of the cave, whistling and moaning in its wake. Man, now i do wish that i had picked up that rusty knife and brought it along... It might have offered me a little protection, if any, against whatever that is lurking beneath the shadows. I switched on my torch, and proceeded my journey into the inky depths of the cave...

To be continued... or not? depends... haha...

I predict that i will die one day...... Does that make me a prophet?

The younger lion will overcome the older one,

In a field of combat in single fight:

He will pierce his eyes in their golden cage;

two wounds in one, then he dies a cruel death...

I've been reading a book on nostradamus's perdictions. This was the one that actually made him famous because it described the death of King Henri II.

Authors interpretation:

During a jousting competition between the king and Montgomery, the captian of his Scottish guard, they splinttered lances, but Montgomery failed to pull up his lance in time, so the splinttered lance pierced throught the king's helmet and into his eye. Some people say the king also sustained a second wound in the throat. Montgomery was 7 years younger then Henri. Henri sometimes used the lion as his emblem. The king lay in agony for 10 days before he died.

My interpretation:

I was played a game of chess with my friend 2 days ago. Coincidentally, there are the words "lau" and "shi" in his name (lau means old and shi means lion in chinese). He is also a few months older then me. So naturally, im the younger lion. My friends likes to do castling, so that puts his king in a safe position, a "golden cage". But he made a few mistakes in that game, allowing me to attack his king at 2 possitions, 1 possition with my queen and the other possition with my rook. Since im not particularly good at checkmating ppl, i had to clear all his pieces to make way for my queen and rook in order to win the game. So when i finally won the game, my friend only had his king and a pawn, hence explaining the part of dying a cruel death....

Nostradamus is a genius man... he actually predicted that i was going to win this game of chess 500 years ago... AMAZING !!

Haha... what a load of crap... people who actually believe this must be retarded...

* This is actually 1 of the few times where i beat my friend in chess. Usually, i am the one who is at the losing end...

Cliché...

"Success is 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration......"

Hmm this is a famous quote of Thomas Edison i think... The one which has been seriously missused by ALOT of people...

Most of us would assume that Thomas Edison is encouraging us to work hard to achieve our goals right? That assumption might really make an ASS out of U and ME...

Im sure most of u have installed a programme before... What happens when the installation gets stuck at 99% ? The programme simply doesnt work... on top of all the frustration and irritation, u have wasted all of ur time spent on that installation and will probably have to redo it all over again... And for cases where u will need to replace the CD, you have to waste even more time, energy and some petrol ( U might need to drive back to the CD shop). So who says that the 1% isnt crutial just because of the 99:1 ratio?

So what happens if you invest all of your 99% of energy on a project but simply lack the 1% of brains?

Answer : You get a parliament building with a leaky roof...

Besides wasting public funds and projecting a poor image of our country, an extra 22mil ringgit has to be spent to wipe your ass... So the moral of this story is : if u dont have the brains for the job, STOP hogging the resources and let someone else do it !! That's what Thomas Edison is actually trying to tell us...

Growing up isnt such a big deal after all......

Studies shown that people are reaching puberty at a younger and youger age...

Statistics show that people are getting married at a later and later age...

Ironic isn't it? Our planet is getting wierder by the day...

I've reallised that most people grow old, but they never grow up. In fact, i reallised that the only difference between an adult and a child is that adults are hornier. As adults, we consider ourselves to be more mature and wiser right? But how come we always end up doing the same things we did as children?

For one, we fight over religion. Wars had been fought over the issue of who's religion is more supreme ever since the beginning of history. Sometimes, i really dont get it. We worship and love our creator, but why cant we love him for what He is? Why does it matter whether we call him God, Allah, or 神? We know who He is and He will always have a place in our hearts. Why must we try to exert our believes on others and eliminate those who do not comply? This is just like one of those "My dad is better than your dad" arguments we have as children, just that now it is fought more aggresively over a way larger scale.

The second thing is, we throw temper tantrums when we don't get what we want. If you dont believe me, just ask anyone who works in the "customer service and feedbacks" section. I've seen people yelling at those poor people working there over things which are entirely not their fault. I mean, what has the person working at the customer service got to do with your faulty purchase or unsatisfactory service? They are just there to take complains, and not to be a punching bag.

Well, we watch cartoons too... Some of us might be anime buffs or watch cartoons such as "south park" and "the simpsons". The only difference between adult cartoons is that some of them contain humour of the sexual nature, which children probably wont be able to comprehend.

We play with toys. We collect cars, play computer games, some of us invest in stereo systems, while some of us play sports such as golf, bowling, soccer, etc... which is not unlike the games we play as children. Its just that the toys become bigger and more sophisticated as we get older.

There are countless other things which actually show that being an adults is actually no different from being a kid. So since, we are reaching puberty at a earlier and ealier stage in life, there might actually come to a point where the line between adulthood and childhood becomes so vague that we can be adults on the day we are born... Lol...

Where, O' death, is thy victory?

It is a good day to die,

Anyday is a good day to die.

Anytime is a good time to die.

Anyway is a good way to die.

Why does it matter how you die?

Why are rituals important after you die?

You probably wont even know you are dead after u die.

Why is it that people always dont know how good it is to live until they are about to die?

Would we still know that, we have once lived, after we die?

Do we go to heaven after we die?

If heaven's such a great place, why are we all afraid to die?

Are we afraid of the pain before we die?

Are there things that we want to achieve before we die?

Are there things we want to tell our love ones before we die?

Then, why are we wasting time doing things that dont matter before we die?

Why dont we say the things we want to say until the time has come for us to die?

Do we get reborned after we die?

In that case, what difference does it make if we die?

Do we go to sleep after we die?

If so, why do we sleep away one third of the time we are supposed to live before we die?

Eventually everyone must die...

Inspite that fact, I think i'm still too young to die...

- Tai 2007

Coming up.... More crap !!!

I saw this webpage on the internet yesterday about Einstein's Theory of relativity... I'd like to summarise what i learnt here...

Its says...

If u are travelling on a train that goes at 100km/h and u jump forward at 20km/h... How fast are u travelling to an observer beside the tracks? Logically... u'd be travelling at 120km/h, which is the total sum of the speed of the train + ur velocity... But to you, you are travelling at only 20km/h relative to the train.

Ok, so now einstein asks a question, If u are sitting on a train travelling at half the speed of light, 0.5c, and u shine a beam of light forward, what will be the speed of that beam of light observed by someone beside the tracks? Again logic tells you that it would be 1.5c, the sum of the speed of light and the speed of the train right? But appearantly, to an observer, the speed of light is still c.

Ok, then what would the speed of light be to u, who is sitting inside the train? In that case, it should be 0.5c right? Since the train is moving at halve the speed of light, so relative to the speed of the train, light should travel at half its speed right? Einstein tells us it is not the case. The speed of light observed by you would still be c.

Although this doesnt really make any sense to me... Einstein claims that this is because both you and the observer by the tracks perceive time differently...

So to illustrate this, he says that if u are travelling in a spaceship moving at the speed of light, and u bend down to tie your shoelace, to you, the time taken to tie your shoelace will still be 2 minutes, but to an observer on earth, it seems like you are taking hours and hours to tie your shoelace. So, if u travel outwards in space for 1 year at the speed of light and come back to Earth, to you, it only took 2 years. But to the people on Earth it seems like you were gone for hundreds of years. So you have actually travelled hundreds of years into the future...

Personally, i think there seems to be something wrong with the flow of logic:

1. I think time should be the same for both you and the people on Earth. So if you go into space and come back later, the time on Earth will still be 2 years later, it is just that you have travelled faster then the image of your spaceship... its the image of your spaceship that takes hundreds of year to come back to Earth. I dont understand why either since you are travelling at the same speed as your image, so logically you should return to Earth at the same time...

2. If you travel at the speed of light directly in front of the person on earth, he probably wont be able to see you, because light isnt able to catch up with u, thus ur space ship wont be able to reflect any light. So i think the spaceship can only be observed at an angle... and in that case... i dun think you would be able to see the image until some time later, because u will need to wait for light to catch up with the spaceship and reflect back into your eyes...

Check out this website if you think I've misinterpreted what I've read... http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/time/think.html

When time has no meaning.......

I spent the whole of last night thinking about something that doesnt really make sense at all...

What is time actually? Einstein says it is the fourth dimension right?

First of all what is a dimension... Our known universe has 3 dimensions right? A straight line has 1 dimension, an area has 2 dimensions and a cube has 3 dimensions... So having a 4th dimension is like sitting on a train moving on train tracks where the train is our 3 dimensions and the tracks will be the 4th dimension... Am I getting this correct?

If a train can go back and forth on its tracks, so it can be said to be the same for our 3 dimensions right?

So i was thinking... suppose this analogy is wrong... and there isnt such thing as a 4th dimension because time doesnt actually exist...

Imagine you are in a universe that doesnt move... the temperature doesnt change... In fact, nothing changes at all... So does time actually mean anything in this universe? I dont think so... But im sure the other 3 dimensions still exist right?

Ok... coming back to our universe... How do we actually measure time? There are 24 hours in a day... what is a day? A day is the time taken for the earth to spin around its axis right? So in other words 1 day is 40,075.16 KM right? So if ur car is going at 100km/h which is 2400km/day and u want to calculate its velocity without involving time, you'll get 2400/40,075.16 which is a constant... which is also the ratio of the distance travelled by the earth to that travelled by ur car in any given time...

Erm... ok this doesnt really mean much... Im still trying to put my thoughs in order...

What im trying to say is time is merely a concept used to measure change... It might not really exist at all... Its like a reference point to relate to specific conditions... So instead of saying you are moving your car 24000km for everytime the earth spins 40,075.16km, u use the term "day"... so a day basically is a constant used to represent the distance moved on the circumference on the earth. So a day could simply be the same as "a dozen", depending on the reference point.

So my conclusion is, it might not be possible to travel in time because we are in a train that actually have no train tracks...

Ouch... my head hurts !!

Lo and Behold !!!

I have just made an astounding discovery!!!

I MIGHT BE THE CREATOR OF THIS UNIVERSE!!!

The universe as I perceive it, is the creation of my subconscious mind to entertain my conscious mind... So basically, everything and everyone is merely a figment of my imagination... but the problem is, my conscious mind is unable to alter reality because my subconscious mind is the one in charge of designing the universe... I mean u created a dream right? But u hardly have any control over what happens in a dream...

There is no such thing as a future and a past for this universe because everything began the moment i gained consciousness and everything will remain as it is until i die... So as far as i am concerned... the universe exists because i exsist and the universe would not have existed if i did not existed because i wouldnt be there to witness its future and its past... As i said in my previous post "I See Dead People...." The world would not be the same if i have not perceived it to be so...

I have come to this conclusion because the only thing that im certain about is "my existance"... I know i exist because i exist... the rest of u... im not really sure... coz u all could damn well be figments of my imagination... hehe... How can i be certain that im sitting here writting this entry and not sleeping on Mars dreaming about it? How? Since all of u might be figments of my imagination... so its only natural that all of u would dissapear the moment i lose consciousness and the only reason all of u existed in the first place is because i thought all of u up... Just as it is in a dream... the dream dissapears the moment u lose consciousness in your dreams ( I wonder if any of u figments of my imagination ever died in a dream before )... Hehe...

Perceiving the universe is the same as reading a book... U wouldnt know the world inside the book ever existed until u read it... so as far as u are concerned it doesnt exist...

Erm... so since i created the universe... the universe should revolve around me right? Lol...

Ignorance is a bliss......

I've been feeling rather happy lately...

And I havent been thinking about much...

Putting 2 and 2 together... I was wondering if i am happy because I've stopped thinking or was it because i am happy thats why i stopped thinking?

It is only natural to be happy if u dont think, because if u dint have to worry about your future, you'd be happy too. On top of that, if u dont compare your life with the lives of others, you wont know how much you are lagging behind and how much you have lost out in terms of competetiveness. You wont reallise that u are stupid if you didnt know that others are smart... You wont have to feel ugly if u dont care if others are good looking... In fact, not thinking will do wonders for your self esteem!! You wont have to feel rejected or looked down upon ever again!! And u wont have to worry about people thinking of u as an idiot, because basically you couldnt care less!! Haha...

But on the other hand, you cant afford not to think if u are not happy. So u must be happy in the first place before you can stop thinking. For example, you cant be happy if u are hungry, so you'll have to worry about where you are going to find your next meal. In other words, if all you basic necessities are met then only can you be truely happy. Hence, if u have nothing to worry about then only can u stop thinking.

So I was wondering if the key to a happy life is to live everyday as it is without having to worry about tomorrow or are u supposed to worry about tomorrow first and make sure everything is in order before you can be happy?

I was also thinking... If im thinking about all these crap... maybe im not that happy after all...... Hehe...

Me a Name I Call Myself...

I've made a general conclusion about names based on general observations... So if u want ur kids to have the following attributes, u can give them the following names... Hehe... :

For guys:

Adrian: Outgoing, charismatic, successful

Alvis : Baby faced, intelligent

Eric : sometimes looks like a pervert but usually quite charming

Jason : Good looking and humourous

Jerremy : Talkative and good natured

Jonathan : Good leadership qualities, Tall

Marcus : Cool but friendly

Stanley : Retarded and irritating (based on one particular observation)

For girls:

Candice: Chic, suave

Cassandra : Talkative and approachable

Evelene : Smart

Jennifer : Sexy and attractive (think Jennifer lopez, Jennifer Garner, ... etc)

Jocelyn : Cute and intellegent

Irene : Playful, amart

Leanne : Bubbly and enthusiastic

* The above garbage has no scientific backings and conclusions are made on pure observation

** The author takes no responsibility if any personels bearing the above names have traits deffering from those mentioned above

The answer to the ultimate question......

I think it would be a bad thing if we knew everything... Why? Because then the world would be a very dull place... There would be nothing left to discover... all our problems could be solved by easy solutions... We would just wonder aimlessly through our lives without purpose and motivation...

There wouldnt be such a thing as good or bad... because we are able to reason things out perfectly... There will only be the right way to do things and the wrong way to do it...

For example... let me ask u a question... Is it correct to kill? For those who have religion... i'm pretty sure its wrong... for those who belive in the current legal system... i'm not too sure... coz we think hanging guilty people is ok right? but if u really think abt it... why do we hang murderers? its not because we want to seek retribution for the deceased... coz he wont know any better... he IS dead after all...... So we are doing it because the murderer is "IN OUR WAY". Because if u let him go free... he'll probably kill more people... if u lock him up, he'll be consuming the tax payers' money... Ok... so the best way is... we kill him!! So lets re-examine... why does a murderer murder? coz he wants money, fame, whatever u name it... and his victim was "IN HIS WAY"... so he murders him...

So now u think about it again... what does this make those who believes in the legal system? Is killing people good or bad?

Coming back to knowing abt everything there is to know... I think life would be pretty much boring... coz if we knew that God existed... There should be no dispute over right and wrong, so everyone will be good and there would be nothing much worth reading in the papers... On the other hand, if we knew that God does not exist then there wouldn't be much point in living, because we reallise that we live in a ever expanding and compressing universe, hence nothing we do will leave any impact on anything... so it would've been just as good as if we haven't been born in the first place...

Ah... the good old days... gone?

Im sure all of you have attended gatherings before... be it for primary school, secondary school or even university. For me... gatherings were always not all that fun or memorable...

That's because i've always felt like a stranger... It's like attending a wierd costume party, where strange people are masquerading under the faces of people i one knew. The moment i walk in, my inner voice simply shouts out : "Who are these people? and what have they done to my friends?". After not seeing each other for ages, even the most chummiest of my old friends do not feel the same as the days before we parted... The bonds and experiences we've shared just do not seem to be there anymore... I really cant understand it... Why cant we go back to the good old days anymore? Does that mean that we havent actually been that close in the first place? Just superficial accompliances? I believe thats what we are most of the time... We depend on others when we need emmotional support or innitiate a conversation so we can pass the time... Come to think of it... Did i actually missed any of those old friends after we parted? The truth is... yes!! ... alot in fact... But thats only because i havent found a new person to replace the void in my life that he/she left behind... After i meet new people with common interests, these "old people" just fades away... pushed to the deepest dungeon at the very bottom of my mind, only to be brought up again when their names are mentioned... Does that make me a "fake" person"? A "user"? or is this how the world is supposed to be?

Or perhaps its because we have all grown up... Developed different interests... We became different people... We werent the same people we were back then... we became more materialistic... superficial... arrogant... contemplating... calculative... tactless... too suspicious of the motives of others, that we cant accept people for what they are anymore... And then we blame others for changing... for deserting us... for wearing masks... for being emotionless... for cheating our feelings......

I want to change !!! i dont want to become a heartless android... i want to learn to care abt others... to share their thoughts... to feel their feelings... to learn to love...... I dont want to classify people under "usefull", "not usefull", "fun" and "not fun" anymore.... I want to call someone a "friend" and truely mean it... and i hope that someone will do the same for me......

Being great is great.... but it is greater to be human......

Starlight...

Did u know that starlight takes millions of years to reach our planet? Well, i find it amazing to know that when we look up into the sky we are actually looking at millions of years back in history...

Suppose one day if we can surpass the light speed barrier, I wonder if we can actually go to the other end of the universe and watch the history of earth and its beginnings. I'd be cool if we can actually see what happened during important events thousands of years ago... I mean we can even see what Jesus was like and the creation of earth as well. Lots of age long mysteries could be solved like the building of the pyramids and the stone heads in Easter Islands......

Speaking of Jesus... i saw a book on Judas's gospel in popular today... I managed to thumb through a few pages and found it quite interesting... I do not know the extend of the truth in that book but it gives u a contrarian view of what happened then... would've bought a copy if the price wasnt so steep... RM50... ouch !!